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happy new year

Sun, 05 Jan 2003 20:51:15 GMT

http://www.livejournal.com/talkread.bml?journal=lemonlye&itemid=19097&view=211865#t211865

*ni!*

1952-2002

Mon, 23 Dec 2002 22:35:52 GMT

Joe Strummer died yesterday.
Mr Graham told me at my driving lesson today and I kinda hoped maybe he was takin the piss, but he wasn't. Apparently it was a heart attack, but I pinched this off the website:
"Joe Strummer, founder and lead singer of one of England's greatest rock bands, The Clash, died peacefully at his home in Somerset yesterday, Sunday 22nd December 2002. He was 50 years old."
I know they split up the year I was born, but I love The Clash. Their singles album kept me going thru exam leave and the summer holidays when I was bored out of my toiny little mind. I didn't know he sang with the Pogues for a bit after Shane MacGowan left in 1991, that was on the website as well, but it just makes me like the guy more cuz the Pogues are bloody brilliant too. I feel sad.

an email wot I received and the reply wot I sent back

Sat, 26 Oct 2002 21:32:53 GMT

In a message dated 24/10/02 3:44:46 pm, SugarPlumHobbit writes:

<< Hey, just a quick note to ask if you and Em have managed to anything about these disco decorations?! I'll be back at school tomorrow (25th) but I thought I'd better remind you just incase you hadn't done anything. Tis quite ok if you haven't done anything. Just take your time, I'm sure they'll be fab

C u 2moz
LAURA >>

Excuse I? You've never said a word to me about disco decorations! And I hope you aren't seriously expecting me and Em to decorate the entire thing on our own next week because we're both at an open day on Tuesday, which gives us a whopping 2 days to get stuff done and oops, both of us have other subjects. Yes, whatever we have time to do will be fab, because we rule, and yes, it is fuckin fine that we haven't got started because guess what, yuh need to communicate if you want things done. And I don't give a toss if you've got personal issues with me, if you want me to do something for the charities committee of which we are both members, you can damn well say so to me and not go through Emily.
ali

p.s. com?mit?tee ??Pronunciation Key??(k-mt)
n. 1. A group of people officially delegated to perform a function, such as investigating, considering, reporting, or acting on a matter.

*Sometimes I like to read quietly. Sometimes I like to strip.*

I like children - fried.

Sun, 20 Oct 2002 21:29:10 GMT

We had leftover mash for tea. Nummy.

Dunno when I last updateded, middle of last week I suppose... Since then I have mostly been... hanging out with Grant (1st anniversary last Thursday, did I mention that? Well it was, and it doesn't seem like that long to me but it is. So we celebrated in style and went to GAME in Dundee to exchange a disc cuz they gave him the wrong one before... we did other stuff as well tho, don't worry! ;). Drove up to see him today and didn't stall once *applauds herself*.

Back to skool tomorrow, yay. Sooooo lookin forward to seein all the supah cheerful sixth year chums, we all get along so well now and isn't it jolly... :S apart from all the fightin and bitchin and such. Nevermind, I don't participate in that crap. Much.....

*I rob banks because that's where the money is.*

junctions

Wed, 16 Oct 2002 15:03:47 GMT

Hom hum ham, have to go to work soon.... weirdly, I asked for a day off (tomorrow) and ended up with more hours than I'd normally do. Laura (manager of both blair stores) is short staffed this week so I got asked to do 5-10 Tuesday + Wednesday in the other Alldays. Y'all remember, the one I live near but don't have a job at... Gemma, if you happen to read this via Roy/Dawson's journal, that was what Fiona's screwed up rota was about so I couldn't do your shift last night... hope you told her that we were meant to be switchin so that neither of us gets blamed... there is sooooo much bitching goin on in these bloody places its just not true. Ah, the working life. :s

In other news, me and Grant watched Basil the Great Mouse Detective today, twas most fun. Lickle mousies' Scots accent wasn't very consistent though... And at my driving lesson (see title) Mr Graham offered to fix me up with George Beattie. Politely declined the offer I did.

*Some mornings, it's just not worth chewing through the leather straps.*

s&t's?!

Sat, 12 Oct 2002 21:31:59 GMT

Which Spuffy kiss are you?
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It's still raining. Bleurgh.

Was mostly working today... very boring. And I think maybe I hate Liz. Got my uniform though, the very sexy blue T-shirt with bright orange collar.

Oh yeah, and Roy may be goin on about Van Wilder, but I don't think it can be as good as Lilo and Stitch which we went to see on Thursday... twas great. There was also a trailer for Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets too so Bee got all excited. I'm off to get a drink now after all the excitement of staying in on a Saturday night and readin people's journals.

*teeth!*

A polluted stream of consciousness leads to revelation

Thu, 10 Oct 2002 22:29:38 GMT

Just wrote an essay about Laura to get everythin out that's been gettin to me and it's still a summary, but it'll do... 2594 words without even needing to stop to think. No, I am not posting it on here... maybe I should print it out and stick it on the common room wall tho! Or mail it to her...

That's me done now though, I promise, once and for all. Screw her, I don't need her mind fucking, her superiority or her self obsession. And my boyfriend now lives closer than hers, so ha!

*It's the smoke from the spark
When the sulphur hits
It turns into an inspiration*

schoooooooool's out, for, october...

Mon, 07 Oct 2002 15:43:51 GMT

Name: Ali
Single or taken: taken
Sex: she
Birthday: 29/07/85
Astrological sign: Leo
Hair colour: ginger and black
Shoe size: 6
Eye Colour: green grey and ginger
Height: 5'7"

*~*F a s h i o n S t u f f *~*

Where is your favourite place to shop?: from a fashion point of view? Hot Topic, but since you only get those stores in America I suppose online from Attitude (based in London), Camden Market and if you're really after somethin local, H&M. Or charity shops ;)!!
What do you have pierced? ears

*~* T h e E x t r a S t u f f *~*

Do you do drugs?: caffeine and alcomahol. And calpol, which contains paracetamol. All in moderation, hahaha.
What are you most scared of?: skeksies.
How many TV's in your house?: 4
Who is the last person that called you?: Grant.
Where do you want to get married?: Lothlorien, hehehe.
How many messenger/ICQ buddies do you have online right now?: 2
If you could change anything about yourself what would it be?: I'd prob knock off some of that belly I guess....

*~* F a v o r I t e s *~*

Colour: purple
Number: 69 dude!
Boy's name: Archibald, Quentin, Methusulah...
Girls name: *tries to think of dumb grrl names...* Yoko! Henrietta, Nigella etc
Place to live: under da sea!
Animal: Sebastian the rasta crab!
Food: innocent little babies / pizza

More questions....

What is your name and what you want to be known by?: Je m'appelle Alison... Ali... the minky pinksta... your highness
What are you listening to right now?: Tenacious D - City Hall
What are the last four digits of your phone number?: I only have a 3 digit phone number... 999! I AM THE LAW! WAHAHAHAHAHAAAA!
What was the last thing you ate? cheese baguette
If you were a crayon, what colour would you want to be?: purple
Where do you plan to go on your honeymoon?: Alyth, I hear it's very nice at this time of year..
How is the weather right now?: sunny and bright
Last person you talked to on the phone?: Grant
What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?: the what now? You mean there's more than one type of sex?
Your favourite non-alcoholic drink?: Irn Bru today, but yesterday it was orange juice.
What's your favourite alcoholic drink?: orange and passionfruit reef, baileys, smirnoff ice... I'm a grrl, godammit!
How do you eat an Oreo?: pull off the top biscuit first, then the creamy bit in the middle, then the bottom biscuit. Unless it's in a milkshake, cuz that makes them all soft so you just eat it all in one.
Favourite sport?: curling of course
What makes you happy?: sugar and ska punk and - get your sick bags out cynical types - Grant
What's the next CD you're going to get?: maybe Room For Abuse by Spunge... maybe just the next semi good lookin album I see in a sale.
Do you wear contacts?: yep
Siblings and their ages?: 15 year old Bee and 11 year old Chris
Who do you consider your close friends?: Grant, Bee, Roy, Ceri
What do you like to do when you are alone?: listen to Spunge
What's the best advice given to you: never put a sock in a toaster
Have you ever won any special awards?: too many to name.
What are your future goals?: to be happy. And preferably rich.
Favourite music?: ska punk.
Favourite day of the year?: don't have one
Favourite month?: maybe December cuz of Christmas and the excitement of New Year just ahead
Do you like to dance?: I like to twist...
What's the stupidest thing you have ever done?: I don't do stupid stuff, I'm too kool
Do you like scary or happy movies better?: scary I suppose... unless by happy you mean comedies, and by comedies you mean Monty Python....
What's your favourite scary movie?: the Bela Lugosi version of the mummy, hehe
On the phone or in person?: in person
Summer or winter?: Winter, since we seem to only have winter or springtum these days.
Hugs or kisses?: I like both... I'll say hugs.

*The cress marketing bord is a subsidiary company of the international society for killing poor children!!*

vive la resistance!

Tue, 01 Oct 2002 19:18:00 GMT

What revolution are You?
Made by altern_active

Hey! You! Is there something worth aspiring to?

Mon, 30 Sep 2002 20:38:41 GMT

Intriguing. Found out today that Loz is taking Lisa to Germany next summer. Intriguing not only because she's done exactly what I predicted (ie latching onto Lisa, the most obvious target since she actually talks - unlike the shy as a shy thing Amy - and is really fun etc etc, plus Coe and Becky are clearly meant for each other which leaves her a bit estranged), but because she never actually uninvited me. Ah well. Naive of me to suppose that she'd make any effort to rescue our four year best-friendship a year on, but a tiny part of my brain (that irrational part that cried at Gladiator and makes me aww over puppies) kinda hoped she would. Or you know, I hadn't considered the possibility that she'd do her best to avoid having anything at all to do with me cuz hey, I stupidly felt like I was the victim - totally dumped by my best friend in the world and left with basically a huge motherfucking gap in my defence structure. Much as I love him, Grant would make a crap girl. You can't bitch to him cuz it makes him feel really uncomfortable and yeah, I can tell him anything at all but there's only a 50/50 chance he'll remember it. And hey, there's some stuff that you only find funny at the time in a girly situation - hence the eight million running jokes we used to have. All gone now. Still, that's all old news. Situation now - Iain has gone to uni and bets are being taken as to how long she's gunna last till she cracks up completely. I apparently only missed a couple of outbursts of tears today, but she did bring the teddy he gave her to skool and talk about him nonstop, including descriptions of his flatmates and the furniture in his bedroom. And it's only a year and eleven months till they're gettin officially engaged. And she's going to see him on Sunday and him and Kathryn are taking her out for a meal... and he's sending her a postcard. So yeah, what's the difference between love and total dependence? Answers on a postcard please Iain....

weeeee!

Tue, 24 Sep 2002 19:44:52 GMT

I took the What Mythological Creature Are you? test by
peacefulchaos !

suc?cu?bus ??
Pronunciation Key??(sky-bs) also suc?cu?ba (-b)
n. pl. suc?cu?bus?es or suc?cu?bi (-b, -b) also suc?cu?bae (-b, -b)

1. A female demon supposed to descend upon and have sexual intercourse with a man while he sleeps.
2. An evil spirit; a demon.

*She likes the godsmack and I like agent orange
Her cd changer's full of singers that are mad at their dad
She says she'd like to score some reefer and a forty
She'll never know that I'm the best that she'll never have....*

I've noticed lately that the paranoid fear of computers becoming intelligent and taking over the world has almost entirely disappeared from the common culture. Near as I can tell, this coincides with the release of MS-DOS.

Mon, 16 Sep 2002 20:05:15 GMT

Physical and logical deletion of a logical child segment in unidirectional and physically paired bidirectional logical relationships occurs when a delete call is issued to delete an occurrence of the logical child segment type, or a segment that is a parent of the logical child in the logical child's physical data base. In addition for a physically paired logical relationship, when a logical child segment is physically and logically deleted by issuing a call to delete the logical child segment or a segment that is a parent of the logical child in the same physical data base, the paired logical child segment is logically deleted. The paired logical child is both physically and logically deleted when the rule specified for the paired logical child is virtual. For virtually paired logical relationships, logical deletion of a logical child segment occurs when the delete rule of logical or virtual is specified for the logical parent, and a delete call is issued to delete an occurrence of the logical parent segment type or a parent of the logical parent in the logical parents physical data base. Physical deletion of a real logical child segment occurs when a call is issued to delete an occurrence of the real logical child or a segment that is a parent of the real logical child segment in the same physical data base.
- Data Logic education manual, 17 June 1986

Leeds, the unedited version (more of the peeps involved read deadjournal so that needs bits cut out...)

Mon, 09 Sep 2002 22:36:39 GMT

Thursday... bus trip... camp goth called Joe sittin next to Bee... lost in Leeds lookin for the bus stop which the bus station sent us to look for to save time *howls of derisive laughter*... prodigy fan called Barney or somethin... saw Laura Iain Colin John Chin and Steve but didn't camp with em... set up camp instead with Sarah Kirsty Puggy William Stu Struan Chris and Fize (this was me Bee and Grant). At night Grant fucked off on the pull with the other guys (who all thought vaguely it was a shame on me but didn't say anythin much cuz they were drunk etc) - note that they were on the pull on the offchance of a bit of a grope and a snog whereas Grant like a numpty just walked out on his 100% chance of gettin laid - so me and Bee went off exploring cuz we weren't just gunna sit there in her frighteningly shitty tent (supplied by father all the way from 1973 with no guy ropes and no real ability to stand up or shield her from the elements) and then later got the Spanish inquisition on where I had been cuz one of the times they came back to the camp we were gone and he tried to phone me but my moby was off. I don't want to turn into naggy girlfriend woman or anything and I realise he was drunk (for the first time in his life because the guys decided it would be funny to give him absinthe to see what would happen) so he didn't have much sense of time but he was gone for three fucking hours... when they came back again me and bee had just come back and were lying in her tent yellin at passers by who dared to take the piss out of it ("that tent's even shittier than ours!" ... "don't mock what you do not understand!" but they thought nobody was there and grant was kind of collapsed in our tent and thought we'd gone off again but Chris figured we'd be in there and got me out... I didn't yell or anything cuz he was drunk, so I just took the piss. He was lying there with his feet stickin out the tent saying to Stu "I'm fine, I'll be coming out again," but he never did and they went off without him - the stupid boy couldn't move, could he.

On the Friday I saw Amen (I love Casey who hates Axl Rose and jumps off piles of amps and rules), Hundred Reasons (John thinks Grant should grow his hair like that guy but he won't), Puddle Of Mudd - but not on purpose, we were kinda standing there when they were on and how much does that singer dude wish he was Kurt Cobain?!! - Phil and Steph bearing milk and sugar (after much confusion over where we were and such) NO FX (who were reeeeeallly funny! *singing* he's the idiot son of an asshole, the idiot son of an asshole), Slipknot who I reckon were better in Glasgow but apparently that's just me and The Offspring, who rocked. Dexter had blue hair. And Noodles was pointing at the noodle bar (where do you think this might be going?!) and yelling "hey, that's my bar! You can go buy my noodles there! Go after our set!! Noodles by Noodles.." etc. There were soooo many different types of fast food stalls like... not just hot dogs and burgers, but chinese and pizza and coffee places and oh, my favourite, the jelly shots stall.... lol, me and bee tried the tequila ones, they were great. It's really weird knockin back a glass of jelly though.

Phil and Steph missed their train home and came back up to stay with us - we're so accommodating - so I got ignored in favour of new booty and was not impressed. Originally I was sat next to Fize but he went off to skin up and Grant went and sat about as far away from me as he could get, on the other side of Phil and Steph and I was kinda like mmm hmmm.... Will and Struan were in the tent about a metre behind me and I could hear little bits of their conversation saying look at that... that's a shame on Alison, does he need to be so obvious... I'd dump him if I was her... did not improve my dispostion. Plus I was fucking freezing. Bee was still down at the field watching Guns N Roses (or the Axl band, who came on 45 minutes late) as were Sarah, Puggy and Kirsty so I felt kinda lonely even in a crowd... I'm a little shy around new people anyway, so for Stu and Grant to be totally chatting and flirting away cuz they've been talkin to Phil and Steph online for god knows how long so they were comfortable around them, plus the fact that three of them were rather pissed (not Steph though) and completely ignoring moi and my can of Heineken seemed a bit harsh to tell the truth. Stu and Grant actually went off to walk the girls to the toilet and at some point during that trip Stu said something to Grant about the way he was acting towards me - yes, every single person in the camp noticed and commented at some point - not sure what but it must have been pretty direct cuz they came back and he went off on a paranoid rant askin if he was a bad boyfriend and I was thinkin yep, actually you kind of are, but I didn't say that, I tried to go off to the loo on my own but he came with me and kept apologising and stuff and eventually I had to give in and jut talk to him but for fucks sake, its a common thing known among girls that I'm gunna get jealous when he talks to other females but when he blatantly flirts with them and totally ignores me for hours on end it goes past jealousy and I just feel hurt and extremely pissed off. He was really sweet after that and kept hugging me and apologising and he was like you know, it's just because I know I've got the rest of my life to be with you and I might never see Phil and Steph again and William just burst out laughing and was like that's really not a very good argument, you're totally taking her for granted (and after behaviour like that there is no fuckin way you should take anything for granted)... but I sort of felt guilty for being mad and then I thought no fuck that, you could include me in the conversation then, you don't have to make me feel like a fuckin gooseberry when I'm the one you're meant to be goin out with. But I dunno, I cheered up when Kirsty and Sarah came back bringin random strangers and Bee came back too and then I had other people to be with at least. Nobody made it to bed before 3am I don't think. I finished the night with a good feeling I guess, don't let the sun go down on your anger and suchlike... specially when sharing tent with the person you're angry with.

Saturday went down on my own as Bee had already left to see Mercury Rev and Grant, William and Fize wandered off to Sainsbury's on the grounds that there was nuthin on they wanted to see. Did they tell me they were going, no, so much as I love sittin in awkward silence with Struan I decided I'd go have a look for lil sis. Watched part of The Dandy Warhols out of curiosity and then wandered off to the ATM cuz I had 41p and the Q didn't look all that long. Heard The White Stripes from the Q. Heard Weezer from the Q. Heard some of Jane's Addiction from the Q, but met Bee and got in for the very end of their set. Was in the freakin Q for 3 hours in total. The hold ups were apparently due to the fact that the festival folk didn't leave a space for the van at the top of the hill so it ended up under the trees which blocked the signals and fucked up the machines. And it charged ?1.50 to take money out of your accout too. Then Bee went down to Sainsbury's the next mornin and found out there was a machine there, no Qs and no charge. We didn't go before because everyone in the field was goin on about how it was a really long walk etc etc, so she left well early to be back in time for bands, but it was only 20 minutes each way. Stupid duff information. But I had money, so I bought me some nummy food and a few cups of reef, I love that stuff. Bought some for Bee too as we need to introduce her further into the wacky world of alcohol via fruity flavoured vodka drinks.

I was in a fabulous mood of course, having had food and nummy drink, but got back to an empty campsite - having spoken to Grant like ten minutes before and he said he and William were still up there and would see us in a bit - and then when Stu and Struan came back theywere furious cuz their tent was trashed (they tidied it before goin down) and the stuff for our bonfire was already burndeded so we wouldn't be able to light it in the night and someone had stolen cider and someone else had stolen absinthe and they'd eaten all the bread which they had only gone to buy a couple of hours earlier and stu and struan in such a foul mood totally changed the atmosphere and I was instantly like, sober and annoyed and Fize came back and explained who dun wot that was irritating (mainly William muckin up their tent) but when Grant came back I tried to explain to him why Stu was pissed off and he totally went on the defensive which was irritating and made me think about why I was pissed off with him (abandoned to go on the pull/to flirt with internet friends/to go to Sainsbury's, being taken for granted, assumed -by everyone else as we as him I suppose- to be uninterested in getting drunk and going out.. it's a festival for fucks sake, so nah, I wanna be in a sleepin bag by ten after a cup of shitty cocoa.. I don't think) and inevitably we made up for that is the way of things but I can't really remember what happened... except I'm fairly sure he was flirting with Kirsty, but he did that every night without fail and most mornings too and generally I ended up exchanging helpless looks with Puggy, Stu or Fize...

That was the night Grant claimed he was too tired to go off on the pull with the others, and also the night Chris went flying down the hill in a wheelie bin and hit the chip stand - the guys workin on it ran for their lives when they looked up and saw him coming, so he jumped over the counter and nicked some sausages and allegedly started a mini riot. It wasn't open the next morning...

Sunday I saw Jesse James, Andrew WK who was fucking hilarious - he considered the entire audience his friends, even though some people actually went to the trouble of buying and wrapping up dead fish to chuck at the guy - Goldfinger, Less Than Jake (who organised a circle pit around the sound tower in the middle of the field, hehee), Bouncing Souls, Spunge, the end of A who struck me as weirdly cheerful, the end of Sum 41, part of The Icarus Line because Phil Alexander used to rave about them on the rock show - they sounded quite decent but not so much my bag baby, Ash who were really good and had a groovy backdrop thing and Muse, who were amazing but I'm not sure if that's cuz I nearly died during their set and I thought they were the last thing I was ever gunna see, lol.

*crucify my love*
See, I was at the front, there was like two rows of folk between me and the barrier, and loadsa stuff was gettin chucked about like it always does and then from somewhere there were these two weather balloon things and folk were chuckin their bottles to try and burst them... and it was all very silly and I was chatting to a blonde guy who had (unlike me) managed to get purple bits in his hair, and suddenly something whacks me on the head like bam and bounces off it and I'm all surprised like "WTF was that?" and laughing, y'know, and a couple of other people are laughing too cuz it presumably looked quite comical, like the polystyrene rock bouncing off Piggy's head in Lord of the Flies. But about five minutes later someone taps me on the head and goes "excuse me, do you know your head's bleeding?" and I was like "huh?!" and put my hand up to me face and there's blood fookin everywhere cuz you know like, head wounds, bleed much more dramatically than anything else. So I'm down there holding my head and my hands are bright red and there's no way I can get out to the first aid tent cuz there's like a bajillion people behind me stretching out for miles and miles and Grant has my phone so that he could be in contact with Phil and Steph so I can't even ring someone to complain and then all these lovely people start giving me tissues and stuff and askin if I'm OK and I'm thinking actually, it'll be fine, it looks worse than it is and I'm in a really good place and Muse are meant to be an excellent live band and if I go now I'll never get back in at all so fuck it, lets do this. And theres this weird foreign guy who's offering me water and hugged me to show support or something, I dunno, and it makes me feel slightly uncomfortable but I don't think he's a mad rapist or anything. So I'm doing OK I guess when they come on and the first couple of tracks are kool and its all fine but then it starts to get dark and I'm losing all track of time and I'm feckin suffocating so I try to work my way back in the crowd a bit and when people bang into me I'm pushing them back as hard as I can and with crowd surfers I'm quite purposely sticking my nails in their skin and hoping they fall on their heads before they reach the barrier because every one of them seems to be kicking me in the head and the foreign guy is still there as I get back and he keeps turnin round to grin at me and it's freakin me out and my head really stings now and I'm so hot and elbowing people out of the way and looking up at the stage and the flashing lights and weird effects and my head is spinning and then somebody taps me on the shoulder and it's Grant who I haven't seen for three or four hours but there's too many people and I can't get to him and I'm lookin back at the stage and jumping with the other people and wheezing like Carrie used to when she was establishing herself as an athsmatic and then he must have got through to me somehow because he was beside me and I'm thinkin fuck, I can't take this, I really want to see the Foo Fighters but they'll be on for a good two hours and I need to sit down, I've been thinking that for ages now, somehow I need to find a space on the hill and just lie on the grass and maybe curl up and die except now Grant's there he won't let me curl up and die so that's off the menu I guess. And when Muse are finished I actually start crying because it hurts and I'm trying to breathe but my lungs are all closed and I'm trying to tell him what's up but I can't cuz I'm choking and I feel like suck a tube, I should have just got out and gone to the first aid tent and come back and watched Muse and the Foos from the top of the hill miles away from the stage but whatever, he gets me out of there and eventually I can breathe and we're right out of that crowd and it occurs to me he won't want to go back for the Foos, he's going to Sick of it All, but he doesn't want me to go off on my own again and to be honest I don't want to be on my own, I definitely won't get back into the crowd - even if I did I'd probably suffocate again so there seems little point. I like Sick of it All anyway, so we end up at the Concrete Jungle stage and I get a drink and we stand at the back cuz I can't cope with going into the crowd - they're a pretty fuckin hard core punk rock band after all - and he won't leave me which makes up for everything else really. Bear in mind he had no glasses and can barely see the stage and that he loves punk rock completely, but he stayed - he never really did anything like that before Leeds, couldn't even miss the F1 qualifying rounds to hang out with me.

Anyways, those were all the bands we saw and then of course at night there were the riots and everything... before that there was an orgy with me and Stu and Struan and Chris in me and Grants tent, Grant had Sarah in Bee's tent and everyone drank cider and Irn-Bru. Colin came to see us cuz all his mates were comatose and him and Puggy both pissed on the fire (gaining it the hugely imaginative nickname of 'piss fire') and then there was a big conversation about the size of Colin's dick and again with the Stu and Grant and all the guys going off together, although me and Kirsty and Sarah and Bee went off to see what was going on cuz we could see flames and stuff and we met them again on the way and shared hugs with various people and we went and there were police with visors and weapons and shit and we were all holding hands and Kirsty just walks up to one of these policemen and asks him what's going on and me and Sarah are staring past him at this alsation whose standing with his tongue out and he's so cute with floppy ears and this cop is like "well, some people have decided to be stupid and set portaloos on fire and fight with the police, so anyone that's muckin about is gunna find themselves on the wrong end of THIS!" and he shoves his truncheon in our faces trying to scare us and we're backing away going "oooook then, just goin back to our tents now.."

Did I mention Struan pinched a T-Shirt from one of the stalls which said 'randy lover' on it, in the landrover logo, and he put it on over his hoody... hehe, that was funny.

Anyway, people were pulling the poles over with the lights and someone did set fire to the portaloos in the field under us and they just exploded cuz of course it was all chemicals and stuff so they closed our ones and I really needed to pee and god that was annoying... and people were putting gas cannisters on their bonfires and a guy next to us put a hole in his tent and people were packing up their stuff and leaving and everywhere there were explosions and a few screams and I ended up in the tent under the sleeping bag convinced that Stu and Grant had been beaten to death by riot police and I was so fuckin scared and then they came back and relief and then they went away again having explained there was no chance they'd get to sleep and I was scared again but eventually they came back having seen some girl get whacked over the head for trying to get past a policeman cuz he was between her and her tent...

It was by turns a brilliant, euphoric, terrifying, frustrating, knackering, wonderful, insane, unforgettable and amazing experience and it was over so fast that there was no chance to take it all in. I think Grant and me are closer now and we all proved how growed up we are and that we can cope in the big bad world. He he he. I'm goin to see the Foos in November so that'll make up for missing them and means I can have no regrets. Roll on Leeds 2003...

unsolved mysteries

Mon, 09 Sep 2002 20:06:37 GMT

Which Friends Character are You?

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help! I'm meltiiiiinng!!

Tue, 20 Aug 2002 21:44:46 GMT

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Middle-earth Name Generator

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According to the Red Book of Westmarch,
In Middle-earth, Alison Elizabeth George was a
Beautiful?Cave-Troll

Elven Name Possibilities for Alison Elizabeth George
The root name suitable for feminine and masculine is:
Pennfalma
Another masculine version is:
Pennfalmaion
More feminine versions are:
Pennfalmaiel
Pennfalmaien
Pennfalmawen

Hobbit lad name for Alison Elizabeth George
Bowman Hornblower from Whitwell
Hobbit lass name for Alison Elizabeth George
Bell?Hornblower from Whitwell

Dwarven Name for Alison Elizabeth George
N?in?Silentfury
This name is for both genders.

Orkish Name for Alison Elizabeth George
B?bukh the Mean
This name is for both genders.

According to the Red Book of Westmarch,
In Middle-earth, Grant Rennie was a
Daring?Ranger of Ithilien

Elven Name Possibilities for Grant Rennie
The root name suitable for feminine and masculine is:
Celebfalas
Another masculine version is:
Celebfalasion
More feminine versions are:
Celebfalasiel
Celebfalasien
Celebfalaswen

Hobbit lad name for Grant Rennie
Bingo?Ploughman from Standelf
Hobbit lass name for Grant Rennie
Lily?Ploughman from Standelf

Dwarven Name for Grant Rennie
K?in?Rubybringer
This name is for both genders.

Orkish Name for Grant Rennie
Globtrak the Masher
This name is for both genders.

Not sure if Roy has a middle name... don't think he does actually, but anyhoo, you can have a look at the site if you have a mind to matey-o.

Well what can I say, here we are back at school... well, for a couple of days before LEEDS! Ha! Got our spiffy blue ties and prefect badges to go with the blazers today, plus personal planners which cost them a whopping ?1.25 each. They've also renamed all the classrooms cuz apparently the system was incomprehensible before-maybe so, but I'd had the 5 years to get used to it! Now supposedly I have to learn a new one!! Mind you I know where the different teachers are so I can ignore room numbers huh.

*I'm not really Blue!*
-Kevin Duala

soooo, blazer badge, on the left tit or right tit? You decide...

Sun, 18 Aug 2002 21:37:36 GMT

Brody Armstrong sounds scarily similar to Courtney Love... I was listening to Sing Sing Death House at Grant's yesterday and having come to this conclusion I shared it with him and now neither of us can quite shake it which is baaaad cuz although I am a big fan of Hole, I fully recognise how much more talented Brody is than Courtney.

*It's the emptiness that follows you down
It's the ache inside when it all burns out
It's poisonous it muscles it aches
It's everything you had when it breaks
It's the emptiness that's all you have left
Too terrified of your frozen breath
It's a bitter mouth it's buttered and knived
It's the awful truth you fight for your life
It might as well it might as well hurt
It might as well it might as well
I went down to rescue you
I went all the way down
Fill your hungry wretched life
Here they come it's closing time
It's the bitter root it's twisted inside
It's the heart you used to have when it died
It's the emptiness it poisons it lies
It's everything that you'll never find
It might as well it might as well hurt
It might as well it might as well
I went down for the remains
Sort through all your blurs and stains
Take your rapture blister burns
Stand in line it's not your turn
All dressed in red, always the bride
Off with her head, all dressed in white
Off with her head
I went down to rescue you
I went all the way down
I went down for the remains
Sort through all your blurs and stains
Ooh, I will follow you
Anytime anywhere
Ooh, when they come for you
Just say you don't care...*

to state the obvious, this world is perilous for us

Thu, 15 Aug 2002 21:20:08 GMT

I passed my exams... A for english and Bs for french, history and art. Quite pleased with those although I wanted an A for art really - that was my estimate thing. They gave Em a B too, so at least we know from that it was a case of blatant SQA mean-ness... Dad was gettin some shopping at the tesco on the kingsway and the girl who was bagpacking and the guy on the till had got higher results that mornin and said everyone from their skool who had been expected to get As for art got Cs or fails... weird.

Laura got an A for music, B for English and Cs for maths, biology and chemistry - beats me why the hell she wants to do biogenetics or whatever it is at uni when she had to work for those results but got the music without tryin... mind you, I never got why she didn't want to go for the music scholarship to Mary Erskine, talk about missed opportunities... But I mean, she could do music in Edinburgh and actually enjoy herself and then teach piano or some shit which she could work round Iain and the kids.

Lisa and Brinklow got straight As, hooray for them! I feel somewhat smug that my friends did so well and Rachel got three As and two Bs... even though I get on quite well with her now there's always that element of competition.

Bee got four 1s, two 2s and two 3s which I thought was rather good, and Ceri got seven 1s and a 2 which was excellent. The 2 was graph com, which she hates.

Got me a job at the Alldays on the Perth Road... 6-10 Wednesday. Thursday, Friday and 12-6 on Saturdays... will prob be knackered but I can make up my sleepy time at skool during RE. Officially startin on the 28th, after we come back up from Leeds, but going in tomorrow night to learn how to work the tills and the lottery machine and suchlike. Will have to see if I can work this around panto cuz if not I guess I won't be able to join in this year.. depends what nights and times they're doing rehearsals. Along with that, learning to drive and being an active member of the charities committee whilst at the same time attempting to improve my relationship with my bony assed boyfriend by tryin to see him more often, I should be a busy bunny over the next wee while. Also said to Arlene I'd do 4-6 some nights if I could at the Hill Primary new bitty of the 512 club cuz its nearer to the high skool than Rattray is.

Currently wondering whether to go to this battle of the bands thingy in the Town Hall tomorrow which Nick has just informed me of... 12 till 5 apparently... him and Stu and Chris are going, but Ceri is workin and I dunno... I was so gosh darn knackered last night I went to bed at half ten (early for me) and slept right through my alarm and woke up at ten past nine, which would have been ok except I was meant to be working at 9. Fortunately mum hadn't left for work (since she really didn't want to go!) so I got a lift rather than automatically adding on the extra half hour of lateness induced by walking. All I'm tryin to say is that much as I miss the guys, I dunno if I can be arsed.

Take my Quiz on QuizYourFriends.com!

Please note that from this, Roy (who I haven't seen for aaaages unfortunately) knows me the best and that Grant, my boyfriend of ten months on Saturday, got about 2 questions right about me... Should I be worried?! My head says "no, its a stupid quiz and come on Ali, you put in some pretty stupid questions". My heart, on the other hand, says "shut the hell up and feed me. I need blood. More blood!!!".

*Build a man a fire, and he'll be warm for a day. Set a man on fire, and he'll be warm for the rest of his life.*

While I'm waiting to die I don't look back

Mon, 12 Aug 2002 21:03:39 GMT

Possibly I laugh too much when I'm driving. But it cheers me up to have the lives of others in my hands... Don't like the gearbox on the feestie, it's mean. However, I shall get used to it. First time in the thing and all... prefer Mr Graham's much newer easier to drive one though... although perhaps I prefer his teaching methods to dad's. I mean, I thought I was tense... ;)

Away to watch Six Feet Under but first I shall do a quiz... always time for a quiz there is (I made a rhyme! Didja see?!)

I'm Phoebe Buffay from Friends!

Take the Friends Quiz here.

created by stomps.

Leeds soon! Aiiii!

Sun, 11 Aug 2002 22:48:03 GMT

I got a text message before from the artist formerly known as hobbit saying "I would recommend that you Grant and Bee get a young persons railcard! Rather than paying ?71 for a ticket we paid ?47.20. All Apex and SuperSaverAdvance sold out"...
*first of all, how much do you have to pay for the railcard in the first place?! Cuz by the time you've got that and the train ticket for Leeds (for that is the topic of conversation) I really can't see it being much less than ?70...
*second, she got that card because she's going to use it regularly to go and see Mr Perfect (who, btw, she is going to be with forever and ever and ever and they're gettin married in spring 2008 and she seemingly doesn't want a career anymore, but she's still goin to uni so she's gunna get herself into massive debt for no good reason and then go and be a housewife with three kids and a dog - yes, still only 16 and there was a time we watched folk on talk shows spouting shit like that and shrieked with laughter at them but now she wants to be one) whereas I would use it maybe twice in a year so it's hardly gunna be cost effective
*third thing, me and grant checked prices almost a fortnight ago and the cheaper train tickets were all sold then, so we decided to get coach tickets for ?30 each - which is still ?15 less than the cheap train tickets I might add - so it's been booked for a while now but her whole attitude to life made me reeeaaallly averse to telling her and I'm still not going to unless she reads this and asks about it.

Mind you if she reads this she might cry, after all with the god that is her man going away to uni in a matter of months and the impending doom of a long distance relationship and oh my gosh she loves him soooooo much and what is she going to do and if I'm not going to be supportive that'll make it all the more difficult (assuming that she even notices, which is doubtful)... cuz she's paid so fuckin much attention to my (William's/Stu's/Roy's/Nick's/Robin's/Bee's/Ceri's/Dawn's/Em's etc etc etc... insert a name here and it'll prob be relevant) problems for the last 11 months...

Assumption is the mother of all fuck ups as well as being one of the things most guaranteed to annoy the hell out of me. When you spend 11 months away from someone, amazingly enough they change and you can't assume you know them anymore. You cannot assume they haven't moved on with their life. You certainly cannot assume that they're willing to fit you back into their life when its blatantly obvious that they're only talking to you until something better comes back from uni to hang out with them in the pub (tres chic... there's another thing, she assumes that she has to 'invite' me and Ceri to go see Glebe playing in the pub, HELLO! The clue is in the name, PUBLIC HOUSE. If I wanted to go, I would. I do not have to be invited to hang out with her and a bunch of college goers and binmen.)

Just had a big rant about this to Roy so may as well put part of the convo to give the gist of it... I shall remove names so as not to incriminate anyone *howls of derisive laughter*

Someday we'll find our (r) connection says:
christ, when we go back it'll just be a month till -'s 17th
Someday we'll find our (r) connection says:
christ
Someday we'll find our (r) connection says:
time flies
DUDE! TOTALLY TENUVIEL!! says:
to be honest, I couldn't give a flying fuck about - at the moment
Someday we'll find our (r) connection says:
ohhh......
DUDE! TOTALLY TENUVIEL!! says:
lol
DUDE! TOTALLY TENUVIEL!! says:
don't worry
DUDE! TOTALLY TENUVIEL!! says:
I'm not going to beat her up or anything
Someday we'll find our (r) connection says:
ok
Someday we'll find our (r) connection says:
she just pissing ya off again?
DUDE! TOTALLY TENUVIEL!! says:
its the assumption I can't stand..
DUDE! TOTALLY TENUVIEL!! says:
I've seen her twice this holiday outside of work
Someday we'll find our (r) connection says:
only twice?!
DUDE! TOTALLY TENUVIEL!! says:
and when I see her at work she doesn't really speak to me... or maybe I don't speak to her, I don't know...
DUDE! TOTALLY TENUVIEL!! says:
twice
DUDE! TOTALLY TENUVIEL!! says:
she has not mailed me
DUDE! TOTALLY TENUVIEL!! says:
she texted me today for I think the third time
DUDE! TOTALLY TENUVIEL!! says:
she phoned once and pissed me off totally cuz she inadvertently insulted bee
DUDE! TOTALLY TENUVIEL!! says:
indirectly, even
DUDE! TOTALLY TENUVIEL!! says:
did you read my thing about our surprise thing for ceri?
Someday we'll find our (r) connection says:
hmm...don't think so
DUDE! TOTALLY TENUVIEL!! says:
I put a big thing in deadjournal but I mentioned it in live...
DUDE! TOTALLY TENUVIEL!! says:
anyway, we took ceri to m&ds theme park as a surprise cuz she never gets to do anythin on her birthday
Someday we'll find our (r) connection says:
oh yeah i remember
DUDE! TOTALLY TENUVIEL!! says:
and bridget told - like, a fortnight before term ended so that was a good 2 months notice
DUDE! TOTALLY TENUVIEL!! says:
and - phoned last week basically saying she couldn't come for some really lame reason... s and d were coming back from holiday so she had to vaccum the kitchen or some crap
DUDE! TOTALLY TENUVIEL!! says:
but she said to me, "does bridget even know what we're doing?"
DUDE! TOTALLY TENUVIEL!! says:
and I was like of course she fucking does, she's been planning this for ages
Someday we'll find our (r) connection says:
what did she mean by that?
DUDE! TOTALLY TENUVIEL!! says:
like times and stuff
DUDE! TOTALLY TENUVIEL!! says:
I was like, the park opens at noon so dad is taking us there for then
Someday we'll find our (r) connection says:
ahh right
DUDE! TOTALLY TENUVIEL!! says:
totally indignant and almost yellin probably
DUDE! TOTALLY TENUVIEL!! says:
and she was like yeah, but when are you coming back... I was like how should I know, we don't know how good it is, we're gunna phone dad when we get bored.. but what would it matter anyway? cuz we were just coming back here for a sleepover...
DUDE! TOTALLY TENUVIEL!! says:
and then I thought hmm, shes planned to meet ? hasnt she...
Someday we'll find our (r) connection says:
surprise surprise
DUDE! TOTALLY TENUVIEL!! says:
but even if she didnt, it pissed me off that that was a possibility... that bee could give her 2 fuckin months and she would still choose ? over us
Someday we'll find our (r) connection says:
she needs to get her fucking priorities sorted
Someday we'll find our (r) connection says:
i mean, i know she luvs him and all but u guyz have known each other since 4ever!
DUDE! TOTALLY TENUVIEL!! says:
its too fukkin late
DUDE! TOTALLY TENUVIEL!! says:
its 11 months tomorrow they've been together
DUDE! TOTALLY TENUVIEL!! says:
fuck it, I've waited, I've been supportive and she's thrown it back in my face
DUDE! TOTALLY TENUVIEL!! says:
when he dumps her she can deal with it on her own

And that, ladies and gentlemen, is all you're gettin to see of that... once upon a time I woulda gone back tomorrow and deleted this before she saw it because I felt guilty... I've done that with three or four entries since - started going out with ? but you know what, I don't think she's gunna read this and even if she does she'll miss the point totally and tell ? that I hate him or something.

You know what, I don't care, I'm gunna put this in as well.

Someday we'll find our (r) connection says:
she's planning this whole thing for her 17th...and i'll be surprised if many people turn up
DUDE! TOTALLY TENUVIEL!! says:
I was seriously considering goin for half an hour and then walkin out
Someday we'll find our (r) connection says:
mind u, she's got all her grown up friends
Someday we'll find our (r) connection says:
since when does she need us lot?
DUDE! TOTALLY TENUVIEL!! says:
thats another thing, all this stuff about mackie whose sooo funny... HES A BINMAN!
DUDE! TOTALLY TENUVIEL!! says:
ross is sooo good at art... so's emily and me
DUDE! TOTALLY TENUVIEL!! says:
kathryn is soooo funny when she's drunk... so is ceri
DUDE! TOTALLY TENUVIEL!! says:
muir and lynz are so great... yeah, they sit in the corner and bitch about people... guess what, I'm pretty damn good at that myself
DUDE! TOTALLY TENUVIEL!! says:
muir is so good at guitar... yeah, but his ego is ever so slightly overblown
DUDE! TOTALLY TENUVIEL!! says:
plus, nick and stu are pretty good too but does she give a fuck about their band, no, its riot all the way.. oh, and Glebe of course, who she never gave a fuck about when we used to stand and listen to them in the wellmeadow but now that ? and friends listen to them in the pub they are gods

then there's
DUDE! TOTALLY TENUVIEL!! says:
there's a thing, she was acting indignant cuz rachels apparently been bitching about her getting it
DUDE! TOTALLY TENUVIEL!! says:
I was like duuuuuhh, what the hell did you think was gunna happen? Rachel reeeeallly wanted to get it... plus, if she had, - would be bitching about her

and that's a helluva lot of text now I think and I've been adding to this steadily for the last hour whilst simultaneously chattin to folk and doing my cross stitch so I think I shall stop.

*life is hard, and so am I, you better give me somethin, so I don't die*

glue sticks

Sat, 10 Aug 2002 20:48:24 GMT

Odds fish, ain't updated this for ages (cuz prefer deadjournal :P) but anyhoo, wot up people, I'm quite a happy bunny even though I bought the dreaded skool blazer today... actually just got a black suit jacket thang from H&M instead but like Mr K (the FACIST, if you read the Blairie - the community has to put pressure on people to conform apparently... HELLO, thats what Hitler did!!) is gunna come up with a convincing argument against that...

Been learnin to drive (he he) and by god I love it... can't quite be arsed to read the highway code though, lol. Been reading American Psycho instead, tis great in a really gory way...

Leeds is in a fortnight, yay! And in four weeks my mom and pop are going to Prague for a long weekend cuz he's goin to a conference there so he's taking her... I would say PARTAY except I think maybe Christopher would feel a bitty overwhelmed and stuff so we shall have to talk it over.

Panto auditions in aboot a week as well... me and Bee and Chris are goin in for it, who else is with us?! I think Marie said she was wanting to do it, so how about it Roy, are ya gunna stick with it this time around?! You know you want to!!!! I mean really, if you don't, what'll you be doin? You need this!! I'll give you a lift home!!

Went to M&Ds theme park placey the other day for Ceri's birthday and had a brilliant time... had a grrly sleepover too which was great fun and there was much sugar and dancing so yay!

Goin to watch the rest of "The World's Scariest Explosions Caught On Tape" now-yes, it's on Bravo!- and then probably Shanghai Noon (you gotta love Jackie Chan) so see y'all later.

*I like my coffee like I like my women. Covered in beeeees!*

lets make like a banana and split

Thu, 18 Jul 2002 20:44:10 GMT

ho hum, had a fight with roy the other night - a result of the wrong end of the stick being got by both of us to some extent, he thought I was calling him gay, I thought he was being totally melodramatic and getting all worked up over nothing... not true in either case, but whatever, as far as I know it's all sorted now.

Was working at the 512 from 8 till 1 today... I so totally hate getting up in the morning! Got given a break though for some reason - in childcare you're only meant to get a break if you're doing a 6 hour shift or longer and mine was only 5, but like I'm complaining... got to sit in the staff room at rattray primary and listen to Tay FM! The radio was on when I went in there and I didn't want to disturb it...

Spent most of the day doing paper mache with small people and drawing various animals - started out as a competition with Alana but ended up me having to draw puppies for everyone. Except Lewis, he wanted a penguin. Also sat out in the garden in the sunshine for a couple of hours this afternoon listening to the undertones... twas great.

Here's a website for you to visit if bored:
http://www.somethingawful.com/cliff/ihateyou/content/xmas.htm
-this is a specific page of it which I found particularly funny.

need a drinky now so bye bye everybody, bye bye

gnarly

Sun, 14 Jul 2002 18:49:33 GMT

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ged

Fri, 12 Jul 2002 21:18:46 GMT

Blarg.

if I wasn't death I'd be toxic waste...

Sun, 30 Jun 2002 22:08:42 GMT

I taste of Death.

Doesn't everyone want a taste of death? Well they should. Most people deserve death. Keep away from me unless you think you're better than that. I probably won't like you. What Flavour Are You?

doctor doctor won't you please prescribe me something....

Sat, 29 Jun 2002 21:37:29 GMT

You?re Pink! You?re not afraid to be different, and you?re more than willing to go your own way. You?re quite the dare devil, and quite outspoken. Sure you?re not the best, but that?s okay! You?ve been through lots of struggles to get where you are right now, and you?re quite content with how you?re life?s been going. You?re known to cause a little mischief, but that?s all in good fun.

What Kind of Pop Princess Are You? Quiz by Jonah